Friday, October 29, 2010

Saturday, October 23, 2010

God has spared me once again.

All that was wrong is now somehow made right. I was faced with all sorts of issues, legal and personal, that have resolved themselves with little effort on my part. I have been dragged from the fire by loving hands.

Father, I don't know why you spare me, but I know our love is great, and so I do not question. Thank you for your mercy. Thank you for being my family.

I walk the path to prove myself to God. I think now that God wants to prove Himself to me. I am reaching and God is reaching back. I am searching and God is making Himself known. I am putting faith in the impossible, and God is saying yes, yes, yes.

I am honored to have this life. I am not worthy of Your favor, and yet You direct me and protect me in all things. God, We truly are partners. Thank you.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Contending with Horses

I have been given hardships this past year that should break me. But, as always, faith prevails.

My sufferings do not make sense to my friends or family. Over and over I hear, "I am so sorry. There must be a reason for this, there has to be, but I just can't think of it. Why be orphaned. Why be faced with lawsuits. Why would God do this to a kind soul?" But they don't understand. When I was young, I asked to serve the world. I prayed to be a savior. I told God this is what I want. By giving me this path, God is not punishing me. God is telling me I am strong enough. God is answering my prayers.

I am unafraid, because God is with me. I am God's child. I am God's love. I am, in all of my imperfections, a humble piece of God, and God lives inside of me. See, I know exactly where God is taking me, and that is why my suffering brings me joy. I will suffer. And in the end, I shall be strong enough to carry the entire world.

God is teaching me. We are growing, and one day, We shall prevail.

"If thou hast wearied with running with footmen, how canst thou contend with horses? and if thou hast been secure in a land of peace, what wilt thou do in the swelling of the Jordan?" Jeremiah 12:5